Who am I??? First and foremost, I am a child of God. I am a wife, a mother, a friend, a student (I am a life long learner), and a business woman. I have many more "titles" but those listed are the most important. Often times I hear or read about people who say that they are color blind and I wonder to myself, "how is that even possible?" I often wonder about this statement because the first thing someone sees when I walk in the room is the color of my skin. I am not looked at as just a woman, I am seen as a black woman walking into the room. If I walk into a room alone, they don't know of my spiritual connection to the most high, they don't know that I am a wife (if they can not see the wedding ring on my finger from a distance), they don't know that I have children, they don't know that I love my friends as my family (because they are my chosen family), they don't know that I am constantly learning and growing and trying to better myself, they also know nothing about me building my own business...what people do see when I walk into a room alone is that I am a woman of color. Some are intimidated by my "blackness", some embrace it.
I haven't been comfortable with calling myself black for many years...NOT because I am not proud of who I am and where I come from but because I do not like to be referred to as a color. I am so much more than the color of my skin. As stated in the title, I am defined by my character, NOT by the color of my skin. It's crazy to me that I would be judged by the color of my skin. If I do say so myself, it is pretty ignorant to judge, mistreat, discriminate against someone based off of the color of their skin, the very thing they had no control over, the very thing they were born with, the very thing that God felt was beautiful and perfect and blessed us with. After all, if we were made in God's likeness, "skin of copper and hair of wool," shouldn't melenated people embrace their greatness? Shouldn't we embrace what God blessed us with? "Our skin is not a sin", and we should not be murdered in cold blood because of it. We should not be burying melanated Grandparents, Mothers, Fathers, and Children that have been murdered for the simple fact that they were "black." How can the same people who go to church and claim they love God go out and murder in cold blood. How can the same people who claim to love God make excuses for people who have killed in cold blood, but get upset when an athlete does not stand for the national anthem. The very reason Colin Kaepernick took a "stand" to begin with was to be the voice for those people that did not have a voice or platform to speak against police brutality. Yet, here we are again, the very reason why Kaepernick was protesting, people are on social media hash tagging someone's name who lost his life do to police brutality. What was his crime??? His vehicle broke down on the highway...If you are interested in reading the full story or watching his video, you can search for Terence Crutcher. I have not watched his video and I refuse to watch it. I have not and will not hashtag his name. I'm tired of seeing hashtags for my people being slaughtered. I'm tired of people making excuses for my people being murdered in cold blood, it's being caught on video and their is no justice. Walking with Skittles and an Ice tea, asking an officer why you are being pulled over, selling loose cigarettes, selling cd's, walking to your car with your hands up, reading a book while waiting for your daughter to get out of school...no one deserved to lose their life over these incidents. None of them even deserved to be shot at.
I understand why some melanted people try to run away from their heritage and culture, why some of them try to disconnect from their people. Maybe they feel that if they run away from their people they will become accepted by the very people that oppress them. Maybe they think they would be safe or their family members would be safe if they become more like the oppressor. Maybe, just maybe, they think their life would be easier... Unfortunately the reality is, there is no reasoning with the oppressor. Their mindset and mentality is something that you will never comprehend. I'm sorry to break the news to you but oppressors are racist and no matter what you do and how you behave, how educated you become, you will never be validated by them and they will always see you as inferior.
It's extremely clear that racism still exists. It is very clear that melanated people are still being racially profiled. Racism never went away, we just did not hear about it as much prior to the social media age. This country was founded on racism and continues to thrive off of racism. When will it end? When will someone just see me as a woman and a good person, and not concerned about the color of my skin? When will ALL people truly be treated equal. I honestly wish I knew the answers to these questions, but your best bet as a melanated person or person of color, would be to clean up your own backyard and not worry about what other groups of people are doing. Take care of your own! Support your own, love your own and of course love yourself in the process. When you take care of yourself, you can take better care of the ones you love. Be unapologetic about being you! One thing that is for sure that in this country the dollar is respected, "Black Dollars Matter." Be mindful of where you spend your dollars, stop supporting people who do not support you. In the meantime, while all the race issues are being sorted out, stop judging people by the color of their skin. IF you must judge someone, judge them by the content of their character, not their outward appearance or skin color.
Peace & Blessings